How the Fly Lady is Changing my Life!:)

So if you haven't heard of the FlyLady program by now, I am hear to tell you about it. I had actually heard of it a year or so ago but just recently dove in.

What does the FLY stand for?? Finally Loving Yourself! The essence of the FREE (yep free) program is that she helps you to create good habits for a cleaner, stress free, living environment that will, in turn, make you feel better about you and the way you live.

Sound like a stretch? I kind of thought so too, but I must say, two weeks in, when I woke up today with my sink clean, dishes done, laundry almost caught up, and dining room table clutter-free, I felt good-no GREAT about it.

The FlyLady program starts with signing up for the emails and newsletter-all free, reading your flying lessons, and then following some beginner "Babysteps" each day for a month.

It sounds simple, and it is, but it somehow gives me the plan and structure that I need. After you get the Babysteps under control, the emails guide you through weekly and monthly tasks designed to keep your whole home sparkling and under control.

I was MORE than skeptical when I started this program but it is WORKING for me! I have a long ways to go, but for the first time I do not feel guilty about how my house looks and what isn't done-I see it all as a work in progress and it is getting better every day!

A Book for every overworked, frustrated, desperate, or just plain tired Mama

Okay I have started reading a new book and I have to say it is EXACTLY what I needed. This book, entitled Desperate... Hope for the Mom Who Needs to Breathe, has already helped me SO much to see how I am robbing myself from the joy of being a mother, how I need to restore God's place in my home and in my life, and how I can stop feeling like such a failure!I realize that I am sounding like an infomercial but I swear to you I have just started reading this book and I already feel exactly what it promised...HOPE!

 ORDER YOURS HERE!!!!!!!!!!

If you have ever felt like life is just too much and that you can not possible get out of bed and deal with your children, house, and husband, this book is for you. Sometimes God makes us stumble upon just the right book at just the right time and I am SO glad he led me to this one:)

Many of the trials and struggles are so close to my own that I feel I could have written them myself!  I think that being a stay at home mom is such an isolating experience, and this book reminds me that not only am I not alone, my feelings are normal and that they can be changed. I literally can not wait to finish this post and keep reading. 



If you know me, you know how cheap I am, but this is the best $10 I have spent in a long time!
One of the writers also has a blog that I have followed for a while and really enjoy called Sarah Mae.  Check it out! You just may find that she inspires you as much as she does me!

Glub... Glub...Glub...

I have been having a really hard time getting to this blog lately. As a matter of fact, I am having a hard time getting to much of anything. I am in survival mode. Just the normal " have tos" have me exhausted, frustrated, and drowning.

I love my life. But lately, I just can't seem to keep my head above water. Maya is an emotional wreck, Aidan is I whirlwind of violence, Lucy is Lucy which is enough to drive anyone crazy, and I feel horrible.

My head spins with possible surgeries for my gallbladder if things get infected, I hear the warnings the Dr.s have given me over and over in my head...if the surgery becomes unavoidable, there are no guarantees for " the fetus". I hate when they call her that. She has a name.

I am not so shallow or self absorbed to believe that it couldn't be worse. Of course it could. Many others have worse situations, I am aware. But at the same time, I am tired of having to pretend that I am not worried, tired, or upset about my own situation.

I feel like a walking time bomb. I am terrified every time I eat. I am terrified to not eat because of the baby. Every time Aidan bites me and I react in anger I feel guilty, if I don't react, I feel like I am ruining his life, if I react and he doesn't respond I feel like an epic fail as well.

Maya is finally getting to an easier stage,but she is so stubborn that if I back her into a corner she will literally do ANYTHING to win. Yesterday she refused to go potty because I suggested it, and then intentionally peed on the floor... Twice.

All this while exhausted, pregnant, and in a constant state of nausea and eating nothing but cold cuts and has me spinning. I can't help but wonder if all the rude people were right. What was I thinking to believe I could handle another baby? I am a mess.

All these feelings circle in my head, a train droning on, and I want to cry. But then it happens.

A little wiggle begins in my stomach and a tiny foot begins to remind me that I am supremely blessed. Or Maya will run up to me , throw her arms around me, give me a kiss, and tell me that " we're married". Even little Aidan surprises me at times, as he runs to me climbs in my lap, and caresses my face... " nice mama"...

These nuggets get me through, small reminders of why it's all worth it, why I matter, why it will all be okay.

So today, I start again. Each day is a new beginning. I take a deep breath, smile that a date to Titanic 14 years ago has led me to all of this, and jump back in. Today, maybe it will feel like swimming instead of drowning, I have always loved to swim.